hmmm.... love..??

Is love there?
yes it is.

Is it there for real?
yes it is.

Does true love happen once in a lifetime?
Yes, perhaps.

Is there such a thing as true love?
definitely so.

who could know?
a mother and wife, a husband and father, a boy and girl smitten, the stars, the leaves and the winds, many smiles, many sighs and many tears would hold testimony...

When would you know?
When it is meant to be...

Would you ever know ?
if im meant to be then yes mayb some day....


someday we'll know
if love can move mountains..
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue...
someday we'll know
why i wasnt meant for you...
someday you'll know
that i was the one for you...
...............
.... from the movie "A Walk to Remember"
(crazy song lyrics, or maybe i didnt get them alrite :P)

ahem..uh uh

Would i ever know what true love is ? for real?
if im lucky enough.. and a believer enough.

if you believe and believe with such a strength and conviction that could equal the certainty of day and night and of stars twinkling and flowers blooming... why, it would surely come true as sure as the lily springs in the pond...

or rather as Dr.Malone says...
"But it gradually seemed to me that I'd made myself believe something that wasn't true. I'd made myself believe that I was fine and happy and fulfilled on my own without the love of anyone else. Being in love was like China: you knew it was there, and no doubt it was very interesting, and some people went there, but I never would. I'd spend all my life without ever going to China, but it wouldn't matter, because there was all the rest of the world to visit... "And then someone passed me a bit of some sweet stuff and I suddenly realized Ihad been to China. So to speak. And I'd forgotten it."



So mayb some of us have been in love and never known, never realised.
some of us have been luckily reminded and we've realised and have accepted love when it came our way again...
Some of us have never been in love but believe that yes maybe there is our true love waiting for us... and maybe we'll one day know what it is, we'll know how china is...
Or some of us may just go along never thinking about it, never questioning ourselves whether we believe or not, seek or not.. and love may just pass us by without knowing what we have missed..because what you've never had you'll never know how it is to miss it.. how it is to miss something that you've never had.....


there are times when im too much of a cynic, a pessimist and a non- believer..
but then there are those times...

when im just busy doing something and my winmap is going on.. i have some song going on in my mind wishing it would play but too indifferent externally to go on n put it on.. then by some divine intervention with the system my song comes on.. n as it plays i feel that thing-- where you feel that some one- my latop/ my gods/ my fates/ my luck someone just read my mind and did it for me... someone out there is listening to my every thought, every wish. every dream, every heartbeat...

sometimes whem im playing with this kid at my place.. i'm engrossed in every ation, every uttered word, every expression of his, he'd be on my lap and i'd be doing baby talk and he sleeps off in my lap.. i feel that thing... if i could feel so so much for some baby who's not even related to me, imagine the love of a mother- the sheer strength of it..

sometimes when i'm writing or reading and i think of those things written about love--surely those things exist!!-- if only words could move me so much.. how would reality and love in it affect?

times when you are not doing anything, just sitting blankly listlessly and you get a call from someone you've been hoping or wishing to talk to someone, or some long lost thing turns up in front of your eyes(it was always there but you never noticed), or some long forgotten tune enters your mind and you keep humming it and you rush to hear the whole song, or some idea creeps in and you sit toiling till you've given shape to that idea.. how sudden impulses change your whole day....


words and silences,
the night sky and those rare sunrises,
drizzles and storms- rains,
wild flowers and green mountains,
they'll make me a believer....
anytime, anywhere..

11th may '07